that im not ment to love or be loved...
and with that bold statement let me explain....the ONE man i saw myself with...like marrragie kids and what not.....hes fucking me over left and right....
hes been with me for a few months...and he has another girl hes with that he dated for three years...BUT while hes dating me he also had a threesome with me now exbestfriend and one of her friends....its like he uses me for sex....and thats all he wants...and i want so much more...i want someone to talk to to tell me itll be better.....to hold me....to love me flaws and all...not change me...take me and just be with me for the hell of it...want me because you like who i am not how i look...i want a real relationship....ive been around the block to many times to count...and yes i might be 15 almost 16...but its time to settle down with the guy i LOVE...and i thought and still do think its my current one....but...damn...its driving me insane...slowly but surely....and if you can show me something different and prove to me...theres someone better for me.....go for it....

ok done ranting...
have a nice cup of shut the fuck up now right?